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2010-10-27T19:24:00.001-04:00

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2010-01-06T23:09:00.001-05:00

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Being LONELY has taught me a lot!

2008-11-08T16:15:00.002-05:00

(Originally posted 8/08 on MySpace) WOW!!! I am horrible, I can not believe it was back in 2007 the last time I wrote a blog. But truthfully, I don't like to blab about anything until something really hits me hard and may have experienced. Its funny how right now at this very moment all I hear are the crickets and the water running from my fountain in the living room, it made me realize how when you are isolated how your life just flashes right in front of you! Have you ever experienced that? Even my puppy Onyxx is knocked out...LOL

For a very long time, I have been struggling with the spirit of "Lonliness". Now some of you are probably like "Yeah Right!", but I'm telling you its better to be alone then around the wrong company. Since '94 I have been living away from my family back in California, and have ventured out on my own as an independent woman. In the beginning I could not stand to be by myself, and began to develop a habit of going out and being a party animal. I mean, it became my escapism, and I managed to meet people and make friends with no problems. Of course, these people who you thought were your friends, really weren't your "true" friends, and then you do not see or hear from them anymore. Yes, I understand people come into your life for a season, whether it may be 5 minutes, 5 years, or a lifetime. I saw a pattern, that 90 percent of the people I was socializing and affiliated with were in and out of my life quicker than I can learn their middle and last names. Then I figured it out, high turn around of people in your life really meant that I wasn't confident, low self-esteem, and hated to say "NO" because you felt they would leave, or not be cool with you anymore! I even bottled my feelings up because I was afraid to speak up and express my true feelings...Boy, God really had to strip me naked just so I can notice who my true comforter was...

Over the last 10 years and becoming the woman that I am now took some sacrifices, heartaches, disappointments, losses, and prayer. After my engagement with my ex-fiance, I said to myself that I didn't want to be in a relationship for a long time, I was emotionally drained, but of course, when you are not looking for it, and I wasn't, you see yourself involved with another guy "emotionally" again. My point is, I had to realize and learn that "LIKE SPIRITS ATTRACT" and you know what, I was tired of attracting spirits that weren't genuine, real, God-fearing, honest, humble, and giving. I made a descision to PURGE those spirits and ask God to bring people into my life and keep the ones that HE only knows that I need and that can lift me up through good and through bad. Believe me, it is definitely the truth when they say "You are who you hang with!"

Today, I look around and only see me! I choose to keep my physical at a distance from the world, but keep my spirit close to GOD, and my true friends close to my heart. When I come home and dwell in silence, you really begin to hear the voice of the Lord and begin to know yourself, and most importantly love yourself. You are not consumed anymore of what happened 5 minutes ago, or mistakes you've made. You just learn and apply how you can make it better for tommorrow and any other things you can do to just better yourself!!! I have learned to take control of my time and utilize the time I do have with Gee Gee. Its so easy for me to say NO when it doesn't benefit me, and to give and spend my time wisely. I'm beginning to enjoy my time cooking, interior decorating, rock climbing, rollblading, playing and training Onyxx, graphic designing, and even learning Spanish. I'm telling you my friends, being LONELY is a blessing. You don't have to rush and surround your flesh with the world, just snatch it up and maximize it for YOU!!! Your eyes begin to see things so much more clearer, you seek wolves from miles away, and you begin to love more and shed light to those who need it with no hesitation!!!!

I am not a VICTIM anymore...

2008-11-08T16:07:00.001-05:00

(Originally posted 12/07 on MySpace) Today, Bishop asked the church if - we wake up being a "VICTIM" of the world or do we wake up "VICTORIOUS" of this world. That really stood out to me the entire day because right now at this very moment, there are things inside of me that are bothering me that causes me to be that "victim". Now, I'm just going to be very open and share with you because I feel there are a lot of people that can relate to this. What's bothering me is really "ME". For so long, I always thought I had to disect why I do things the way I do, say things the way I do, act a certain way, and even respond a certain way. That's because I continue to face the same issues in different situations. Someone that I care deeply about just recently told me that I'm always on the "defense" and always have to make it out to where its never my fault. I know that this is true because when I feel like I may be out to get hurt or feel to emotional about something I tend to put my guards up so that there will always be that "safe-mode" to fall back on. Are you understanding me right now? Every relationship with a man that I have been in, they have hurt me so bad because I really didn't understand why they would do that to me, or why I deserved to be treated that way. So I have to look at myself and say "what is it that I am doing for them to treat me that way, or say that to me?" Well regardless of what it was, it has definitely scarred me, and yes, it still affects the way I may communicate and act towards people. Is that wrong of me?

I know deep down inside, I would never do anything to hurt anyone - NEVER! I mean never intentionally!! My heart is always out to help people in any way I can but I know somewhere in my heart it is still HARD! We as humans, tend to blame our past on why we are the way we are in the present....right?? I mean should I blame my past vulnerbilities because I did not have a father in my life. Or, what about not having anything to show for because I'd rather spend my money on material things so the world can view me as someone who has her "stuff" together. It really pisses me off when I hear people blame someone else because of the situation that they are in now. NO NO - situations are made to be temporary! Whether you are homeless or strung out on drugs - and GOD has given you plenty of resources and ways out, and you are still in that situation, well that is because YOU CHOSE TO BE THERE!!! I mean not to get off the subject, but that really does make me mad!!! But what I wanna say everyone is that I have discovered that I can no longer let my past pains, hurts, rough childhood, fatherless life hold me victim to the PRESENT...I know I have to work hard at purging out all of this (I mean we are talking years and years of stuff) but if I start now, then there is still hope!! Being the oldest of 4 sisters, and now having my own business has given me a leadership position, and being in this position I have become stuck in my own ways because there is no one around to really tell me what to do or how to do it!! Therefore, I can only do what I have to do and believe that is the way it should be. Yes, that is the stubborn side of me that I do not like. If I don't have it my way, then I do get a little bit of an attitude. But I'm working on it, because my way doesn't mean it should be everyone's way. We all do things subconsciously because we have trained our minds to think and act that way, and it takes someone else to make us realize what we are doing!!

Well today, I have made up in my mind that I will no longer become a VICTIM of my past. That whatever my last relationship did to hurt me that does not mean the next man will do that. Why do that, and mess up my blessings of finding my husband if I keep seeking that every man is going to hurt me. Whether friends I thought were friends, lied, backstabbed, or gossiped behind my back, that does not mean I should not love the new friends I will gain. The biggest thing to me right now is that although I have not spoken to my father in almost 10 years, I can not blame him for not being in my life and taking part in raising me. You know why, because whatever him and my mother went through, had nothing to do with me. (Yes, they have been divorced since I was 2 years old) But what's going to be hard, and I'm not even lying - is taking that first step! That is always the hardest!! I know that my heart is telling me to not wait for him to do it, because if he leaves this earth before I can even get a chance to show him what his daughter has become - that would be the biggest regret of my life!!! WHEW...Wish me luck everyone....But that is what I have made my mind up to do!!!

I am no longer a VICTIM - I am longing to stay VICTORIOUS!!! This is what I am choosing!! So can you!!!

I love ya'll - thanks for another wonderful year of your support, love, and friendship!!!

XOXO,
GEE GEE

Find Compatibility not Stability in your relationships

2008-11-08T16:01:00.002-05:00

Stability takes TWO COMPLETE people to achieve. This means that one person can't be 25% and the other 75%....NO, it doesn't work that way. People often say that "...they gotta meet me half way!!" Well I say, I will meet you all the way...why? Because, I am whole, and I have 100% to give. This is in ALL areas of my LIFE (Mentally, Physically, Financially, & Spiritually). I expect the other person to be whole and 100% too....So what is left if two people are whole - well of course you must be COMPATIBLE with that person....It's almost like if you are a cube shape, and the other person is a sphere shape, and no matter how much or hard you try to press that cube in that sphere - it just doesn't FIT!!! Am I right???? So why settle if you know you will not fit in that sphere...Lawd!!!

This is where it gets complicated because often people will settle for someone that doesn't give 100% or may not be compatible with. For example, LADIES - we are naturally "emotional" creatures, however, that does not mean we should settle for a man that provides our needs financially and not emotionally (ie. call when he's thinking about you, tell you you're beautiful, or give you affection), or FELLAS - you are naturally "hunters" when you seek a "prey" that draws to you, you attack or chase until you kill it, however, that doesn't mean that you also should settle for a woman that is just appealing on the outside, but not on the inside (ie. gives you rest, doesn't nag, let's you be the man in the relationship)...TRUST me, looks only last for a MILE....the rest of the journey what are you bringing to the table???

Truthfully, I am at the point in my life where I need a partner that will not just be there for affection, but also my business partner, my homeboy, my bestfriend, my confidant. Be sure of what you are looking for and need to make you want to give back to the other person ALL THE WAY!!! Cut all confusion out the way, let them know your expectations, and it should be up to the other person to make a decision. Don't make decisions off of emotions, or because you've become COMFORTABLE. I have been there, and you get so lost in someone else, once you are not with that person - you almost don't know who you are anymore!!! Stay focused on your GOALS, and ACCOMPLISHMENTS. If the other guy/girl is hindering you from these, then you know you are being distracted. Both people should be supportive, and most importantly ENCOURAGING to make sure the other person doesn't get off track. So ladies, if your man tells you he has to work overtime, or has to cancel lunch and attend to a last minute meeting that will make profit or be beneficial to both of you - PLEASE, don't NAG or WHINE about it. Be supportive, and tell him "Okay baby, is there anything that you need me to do, or Good Luck with the meeting I'll be home when you get here!" This shows that you are LOYAL and down for him. Fellas, do the same with your woman, because we do live in a society nowadays where a lot of women are career driven and more ambitious!!! Don't worry about the deciet, lies, or doubt if that's really what they are doing, because TRUST ME - what's done in DARK, GOD always brings to LIGHT....Then you know he/she was not meant for you in the first place and that would be the biggest blessing ever.....But don't destroy a blessing either so, enjoy time with one another - learn, understand, compromise, teach, expose with one another. Your strengths can be their weaknesses and vice versa....

What has worked for me in the past is that I ask GOD to just give me CLARITY on the situation, and He will give you the answer. If that person is not the "one", ask God to give clarity and soon He'll sever those ties. If that happens, accept it for what it was, learn, apply, and move forward!!!

I love you guys, you ALL are always supportive, and if you want to talk more or may be going thru a situation and need someone that won't judge you then, I'M ALL EARS geegee1213@gmail.com

Love from the "A"
Gee2

PASSION is how I got here

2008-11-08T15:55:00.001-05:00

It has definitely been a minute since I posted my last BLOG...My goodness time flies when you are busy....

During these last few months I realized that not only is MySpace a great way to network and meet "like-people" in your business, but it has definitely been used to inspire so many Young artists, that really have shared with me your desires and passion to take your career to another level. Trust me, I have no intentions of being percieved of someone I'm not or pretending that I got it going on, its such a blessing that I can inspire anyone even though I feel I still am working towards my goals....Everything that is displayed on my page is 100% legit and real.....I guess my point in writing this is because a lot of you ask me to go to your page listen to your music, how bad you wanna get discovered, or even need development because this music business is your LIFE!!! Well I'm here to tell you (especially all my ladies out there) that this BUSINESS is like a Roller Coaster....it has its HIGHS & LOWS. Basically, what I'm saying is that, not only do you have to love what you do, but you must have the PASSION to do it. There is a serious difference.....This is what's kept me in the game for a very long time without giving up....Let me explain:

You see, you can love something, or even love someone....you can be in love with something, or in love with someone....but let me tell you that what pushes that LOVE deeper, what gives it that extra push is the PASSION behind the love. Oh believe me, ya'll I'm keeping it real here right now, that my passion for dancing has definitely taught me how to sacrifice a lot of things. Whether its money, family, friends, and even your value, and sometimes integrity. I dropped out of college did not even finish my 2nd year in college, and stepped out on faith to move to Los Angeles to really go after my love for dance. That already put a dent in my relationship with my mother and family. They looked at me so crazy and always tried to discourage me and say "DANCING!!! YOU CAN'T MAKE A CAREER OR MONEY OFF DANCING!!!..." Do you know that just made me push even harder because I knew I had a lot on my table at that point....but at the same time, how was I still going to support myself financially. Hey, I had to grind it out!!! Yes, I worked 2 jobs, took classes when I had time, and even tried to maintain a relationship at the time. But straight up, I couldn't hold a job for more than 6 to 8 months, because I chose to put my dance career first, even if it was a one-time gig doing a video for this artist and starting off, most of the videos I did were for local, low budget videos, so I would only get $100 to do the video. I would call out, and of course, like Donald Trump "You're Fired!!!" LOL Well as I stayed persistent, and motivated, my PASSION would not let me give up. I began to get bigger and higher paid gigs, so now when my family sees me on TV they are now having second opinions....But hold up, there has been plenty of times where things were good for me, and then I learned that the industry has a slow period and now I'm like - Oh lawd, how am I gonna get this rent paid!!! Ya feel me?? So I did have to go out there and find another job...Its funny how you think you've taken care of something and as soon as it done, another issue pops up...

The pressures of my family, friends, relationships with men, bills, the industry itself (being that it is Male dominant) has taught me how to prioritize my life. I knew that I didn't want to work for anyone, and I did know that I wanted to dance because it was the only thing in my life that has never left me - but you know all the glory has been give to GOD because he spared me and still continues to let me keep my gift and help other people. Well I put my creative ways to use and birthed INFINITE MOVEMENT TALENT DEVEOPMENT. It has almost been 4 years, since I last had a job. Working for yourself, has definitely challenged me to study what I do at a greater scale. Dealing with dishonest people, drama within my dancers, financial stability, men in the business who had alterior motives, and structuring your business has not stopped me from succeeding. I'm telling you if I did not carry the passion behind my love for dancing and choreographing I would still be trying to figure out what I want to do in life. Sometimes I cry to GOD and tell him how thankful I am that you have blessed me with all I have, because I know I don't deserve this and I'm not worthy!!! I'm human like everyone else, I make mistakes, make wrong choices, and still do things outside the will of GOD.

With all that being said, I'm here to testify that when you discover your PASSION, the enemy will do all he can to stop you from reaching your ultimate goal. Accept those times in your life, continue to thank GOD, because at the end of it all you will be glad that it has happened. Even if it means starting ALL over again, just pick back up and say "Oh well, moving on...." Learn from the previous experience and apply them to the present time. People will always have an opinion and there will always be negative around. Well as a witness, through all the drama, rumors, lies, deciet, that has been done to me, I wake up and say "AHHH, I CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO WORK TODAY...THANK YOU JESUS"....

I love you all so much, I have so much love for anyone that is really striving to be someone and have something in life. Remember, when you hit those road blocks, just knock 'em down and keep ridin!!!!

Alright let me get to my session - Ya girl Gee Gee is out!!!

I use to be very Insecure with my Body

2008-11-08T15:28:00.000-05:00

Wussup Everyone....

I have been meaning to write a blog on another topic but I wanted to specifically write about this because of the simple fact that I had a conversation with a friend the other night while he was explaining to me the difference between being Cute & Sexy....

Now, from elementary to about my senior year in high school, I was a serious tom-boy and b-girl type chick....I was always the one wearing the extra baggy clothes and never liked to show my legs, arms, and back. I loved to dance and thats all I would do is battle and jump in the circles...It was so uncomfortable to me. I guess you can say I may have had low self-esteem and self-confidence because I was really trying to find who I was and love myself. When I moved to Los Angeles in '96, I began to recieve attention like I never before. Now understand ladies that there is good attention and there is bad attention, and the crazy thing about it is that they come to you the exact same way!!! Yep, you really have to discern the "wolves in sheeps" clothing....Well, since I've been recieving all this attention I began to be a little more comfortable dressing up more "sexier" and even wearing make-up and getting my hair styled to my nails done...I would've never thought I would be doing all this... But that was because the attention I was getting was somewhat becoming "FUN" and it was all new to me....I'm keeping it all the way real here....

Make a long story short, that junk got old because the simple fact that those men all had a "motive", even friends, but were they really trying to get to know me, or were they just trying to get to know me until they realize they can only go so far and leave you emotionally hanging...Being compared to women that may have more "assets" than me, taller than me, prettier than me, more power or money than me, would strip my self-esteem and self worth away from me. Why? Because people were constantly comparing me (if you don't know me in person I am barely 5 feet and about 105)...It was not a good feeling! Even in my past relationships, I never use to like to be totally exposed to my man because of that same reason. Now, don't get me wrong when I use to do certain photoshoots, videos, or be on stage performing while touring I was good wearing certain things that may have shown my body because I was doing something that I was use to and that I loved (that's dance)....

Well there's good news....Over the last 10 years I have grown and matured through my life experiences with people, relationships with men, family, friends, this entertainment business, and my growing relationship with the Lord. Collectively, all of this has made me realize that its not about what people say, or think. Everyone is ALWAYS going to have an opinion. I know how to conduct myself accordingly, appropriately, and know when and where the time is right. I have limits and know when to draw the line on how I dress. You must learn to love yourself FIRST, and watch what you are putting out. I mean how you talk, walk, dress, treat others, give, recieve, these things are all crucial on your overall character and how people will remember you. The Bible says if you give BOUNTIFULLY, you will recieve BOUTIFULLY so therefore quit thinking about yourself all the time!!....Ladies, if you are reading this and this is from the bottom of my heart - I have been at that point in my life where I was insecure that any attention made me feel good. I mean I would literally go out of my way to impress people or even men because it was important to me at the time what they thought.... Trust me, its okay and healthy to be lonely, to spend time by yourself, let GOD speak to you and let Him comfort you. You don't have to always be around people, or find a man to keep you company. A man, wants a woman with her own...that has integrity, high standards, and ambition. If you truely want a man to love you - the first thing is to love yourself....You can not let this world dictate who you are inside. If I was to ask you right now - In the next 5-10 years, how do you plan to contribute to today's society???? WHAT WOULD YOU SAY???

That's all for now everyone.....I have so much love for all of you!!! Each of you are special and have a purpose on this earth.....Ladies, if you want to speak or talk to me email me your info at geegee1213@gmail.com I am all ears!!!

3 hugs, 2 kisses, 1 love!!! Again from the heart!!

Your girl,
Gee Gee

The STORM has ARRIVED

2008-11-08T14:58:00.000-05:00

Okay, everyone right now I'm mad exhausted from a performance, but as I'm driving in the rain, it has really inspired me to write about this topic, because I know for sure, I'm not the only one that goes through this.

Basically, I feel like at this very moment I am going thru some battles in my life. Everything from financially, physically, mentally, emotionally, and even spiritually. You feel like you work so hard, but you don't see the fruits of your labor, you feel like you put so much energy into people and things you love, but they don't appreciate anything, emotionally your drained because people who thought had your back, all of a sudden they are the very people that are now your enemies....I mean, WTF!!!!! I'm at a point where I just want to shut down all the way and say "The heck with all this!!!" But see, I had to stop for a long minute and let GOD speak to me because I know this was all happening for a purpose. A bigger purpose....the hardest part is going thru it....

As humans, we naturally react based on the logical perspective, and ignoring what the bigger picture really is. Let me get a little more in depth here....What I'm trying to say my friends, is that when times are hard and they are not going the way you expected them to go, or everything bad that can possibly happen has really happened - DON'T PANIC or let that spirit of REBELLION get inside you, the main thing is to STAY POSITIVE and keep your eyes and heart on the bigger purpose - God will get the glory. Okay, I know right now that GOD has to get our attention back in a way where we must lean and depend on only Him. Not man, not woman, not money, not alcohol, not sex, not the clubs, you feel me? I'm telling you and I know this for a fact that GOD is teaching me some things right now. He made me realize that no matter how much I try to fix things in my own power - he cannot truley bless it!!! If I don't keep God first in my business, relationship with a man, or anything that I'm involved with - how can He truley prosper it!!! Remember, that God is a jealous God; we shall not put anything before Him (Exodus 20:5) - He loves us too much for us to be like "Yo, wussup Lord, hold up one second I'm gonna get back to you!".....This is what I always did, and forgot where ALL my blessings were coming from!

The difference with me is that now, when times like this is really hard, and things seem to be falling apart (ie, all my set of keys were stolen, my wallet was stolen, can't drive my car had to take MARTA & bus something I never did in ATL, things I planned and hoped on are not gonna fall thru, business is uncertain and so on) even if all this is going on - I keep a smile on my face, I am constantly telling the Lord "Thank You" cuz when I do get out of this I will be a much better person!!! I mean I have to look at it like this: I'm not a drug addict, i'm not on the corner selling my body, I still have all of my limbs, that alone I need to always PRAISE His name!! I refuse to let Satan steal my joy and get the best of me....Remember that a TEST passed, is a TESTIMONY unsurpassed - and MISTAKES are not LESSONS if you don't learn from them (I can honestly say that was the best advice my ex has given me)

Storms come and then the Sun will come back.....but believe me the Storms will come again, but this time when they do - You will know how to keep yourself dry!!!

STAY BLESSED - Love you all! Once again from the heart and saying it unmasked!!!!

3 hugs, 2 kisses, 1 love!!!